Today I won
against the lukewarm wetness
evaporated by an invisible sun.
My face, comfortably dry
and capable of standing on its own
out in the open and not hiding
under the blankets;
the arid smell of too good to be true.
Month: December 2021
The Nice Things (a poem)
none of this belongs to me
i walked amongst the nice things;
the pure blue sky and the creamy sunshine,
the eloquent shadows stretching on the road
relaxing with the glowing green leaves.
but I saw my smile
in the emerald sparkles deep in the bush
and the red shyness of the new born leaves.
how can i not accept
the cheers of those creatures
an embodiment of my happiness
memories.
A Self Care To-Do List
If the only way for you to be happy is getting into your dream school, you will never make it: because the reward that you are dreaming of won’t survive the distance of time.
In the final month of college apps and semester exams, I know that all the high school seniors need to be reminded of the little moments that makes us happy. We are valuing our self worth by the college that we get into, delaying our gratification by working until burnout, and dreaming of opening the acceptance letters. But what are we seeking? Happiness? The praise and recognition of other people?
The restless nights reminded me that I should do things just for the sake of it, and believe that happiness is fulfilling what I want to do at the moment. All the positive changes I can make right now, and it doesn’t have to wait until college. Happiness doesn’t live in the future.
Things that makes me happy:
- journaling and writing blogs
- self-care app
- showering
- candles
- taking walks
- hanging out with my cat
- running
- listening to music 24/7
- talking to friends online
There’s no perfect formula and sometimes it’s not clear if one activity will make you more happy. You have to be really aware of how your body is feeling: don’t grind homework if you overwhelmed, do something active instead.
Live in the moment, not for others nor the future, even when you are doing it unconsciously. You have to believe that at every moment, there’s something that you can do to make you feel better.
The Conscious Hour 